The ways of the world (now)

I am astonished at how degenerate society has become. Just today, I've read news reports of a mother who slashed the throats of two of her daughters, a day care owner who allowed a sex offender to assault and film the children in her care and an update on a child whose toes were bitten off when his parents left him unattended overnight with a dog they were watching. It is horrible that people are so caught up in themselves and their own issues that they allow these things to happen to children...whether their own children or children in their care! I am a firm believer that children are a gift and that the whole point in the circle of life is to teach our children and care for them so that they grow up with more opportunities than we had, in an effort to make the world a better place. And yet there are so many people that have children for the check (whether welfare or child support) or for lack of using birth control. It infuriates me that these people will abuse and neglect these children, who in turn will likely grow up with issues stemming from this and be a drain on society rather than becoming a useful part of society. And seeing stories like these over and over in the news makes me even more upset knowing all the money we send to help people overseas, when we have so many who need help right here at home. I pray that these children will be given the assistance they need to overcome what has happened to them, and that the people who hurt them will regret it every day for the rest of their lives and for eternity. Climbing back down off my soapbox now...

My Almost Birthday

So tomorrow is my birthday...and I'm not even excited. What is wrong with me? It's definately not an age thing, I could care less. But usually I am so pumped up that I'm talking about it weeks before hand and the festivities carry on for nearly a month! I'm just so blah about it this year. It's gotta be that Granddaddy is so sick, only thing I can figure. Less than a month ago, his heart doctors told us there was nothing they could do for him..and now it seems that there's something else going wrong with him all the time. My heart just isn't in to the festivities. We had dinner and cake at my moms (Brett made an awesome chocolate cake with melted Hershey bars for icing, yum) and I got lots of cool gifts (a Prada purse, yay me) but still I struggled all the way through it. I'm getting Facebook birthday messages already and I know people will be calling/texting/emailing tomorrow expecting me to be my usual excited self. I just don't know if I can be! It's almost as if I feel guilty for going on with my life, celebrating it, when his is coming to an end. I'm not the person to keep things in perspective in any case. I can know something logically but still not be able to handle it emotionally. I wish I were different in that way, but thats just me. No point in blabbering on about it I guess, so here's hoping for a "happy" birthday for myself!

The Adventures of Houdini (AKA Becca)

So, I have this dog, Becca. She's a 9month old part lab, part something else. You can certainly look at her and see that there is lab in her, but its the dragging crap in the yard that shows me for sure that she's a lab! Since she was a puppy, we've often regretted calling her Becca, believing that Houdini would fit her much better. She escaped the puppy pen we built for her within the first week, and many more times thereafter. She has escaped the runner by breaking her collar and another time by somehow unbuckling it. She's super skittish of anyone, and rarely allows us to pet her, but you can tell that she loves us nonetheless. For months she has been dragging stuff into my yard. I've had underwear and other clothing, pieces of couches, dead animal bones, carpets, trash, you name it. I clean it up, she trashes it again. Its almost a game now. Well, tonight takes the cake. I had one of the neighbors pull up in my yard. You probably guessed it...she stole someones shoes. Nikes at that! Grabbed them right off the porch. Damn dog.

My Crazy Life

Has always been I guess, but right now is a whirlwind of activity-chaos! I have a recent ex-boyfriend who wants to be with me and build something with me but he has BIG money/work issues and flipped out when he found out I was with someone else AFTER we broke up. People around me keep dying..I know that sounds kinda harsh, but its true! I've cried more in the past few months than probably ever in my life!

Other than that, my son is brilliant and beautiful as ever, though I'm afraid he's becoming addicted to the Wii. My job is going great, I really love it! I'm even getting ideas and starting to get my head wrapped around what I want to be when I grow up! Anyone who knows me knows that I'm no where near done with school! (Anyone else notice how much I love exclamation points? WTF?) I had an awesome training last week-at the beach in an oceanfront room :). I've got so many great new ideas! I know most will get knocked down but I'm still game to try! Since the conference, I've been thinking seriously about consultant/training possibilities. I like to teach people, I love to talk, I like to be considered an expert in something (anything), I love to travel...its really beginning to sound like a great future career!

So, amidst all the craziness there are blessings. Thank God for that!

Its the weekend

So finally...its the freakin weekend! Wow, what a crazy week! I got two, maybe three placements this week so thats cool. Ohh Ohh Ohh...and I got this crazy awesome deal on a chair and a half and sofa...I've wanted a chair and a half 4EVER...I love it! So not my color, but oh well..shit happens! Was thinking of taking the Brett-man to the Jumping Monkey 2nite, but I so hate going without an adult to talk to, so I might have to wait on that. Besides that, my only plans for the weekend thus far include cleaning and organizing. Yahhh! I was in such a crappy mood at work today, and of course had a meeting with the big boss and the whole department..i think i calmed down before the meeting started, but still not really sure what my deal was. Oh well. Been talking to the cowboy alot lately, he hung out the other night. Not really sure whats up with that, I really just don't see us making it in the long haul, but two years together is tough to get past. Sorry this isn't much of a post, just my ramblings. Maybe I'll do better next time.

I'm popping the cherry today...

So, let me say that this is my first blogging attempt, hence the title. As I recover from my busy yet fun weekend, it feels good to blog the happenings. As it would happen, my mother just recently turned 50. Her best friend, Paula, will be 50 in just a couple of weeks. So, sweet and thoughtful offspring that we are, we decided to throw them a party! We debated for weeks on the theme, decor, food, music, etc; we ended up with a beautifully decorated Mardi Gras party, starting out with music from the year they were born, through their teens and finally to Todays Hits! The food was fabulous and the costumes were sometimes outrageous! And the birthday girls were plastered! I don't mean Saturday afternoon at the pool fluttered, I mean completely totally 100% wasted! It was hilarious...I mean damn, they showed up feeling pretty good...but drunken wasn't far behind! My mother danced like she hasn't danced in at least 20 years...she's still hoarse today and sore to boot! And the mouths on those bitches...holy cow...they would've made sailors blush! I personally now have more information about their sex lives than I ever needed to know (and somehow I thought I had already heard it all around the pool). I must say though, a good time was had by all.